Happy Summer

Summer is finally here!

David had yearly echo back in May. The news wasn't all that good. We are to go back and have a repeat echo in August to look at it again. I'm honestly not to worried about it. I really don't want my baby to have another surgery though. The good news is he is acting completely normal.

The boys are almost three! Where has the time gone? They have gotten so big. They are talking soooo much. Matthew's vocabulary has just sky rocketed. David's isn't to far behind. Both boys are running all over the place. It's a trick getting them into the car because once outside they want to gooooooo. Mommy's trick is to ALWAYS take the car in the garage and not open the garage door until at least one is strapped safetly in the carseat.

Potty training... well we tried once. They are not ready yet. We are ready for them to be ready. But... boys train late. Usually not ready until they are three. I'm thinking about making McDonalds a barganing tool since they love that place but we'll see.

Welcome 2009!

The holiday's are over. I'm kinda glad for that too. The boys had a good Christmas. Sadly, Matthew had to miss Christmas with Paul's family. We had Christmas with Paul's parents, and sister's family on Satruday after. Matthew came down with the stomach flu that morning. My Mom was awsome and came up to our house and stayed with him so we could take David and go out. It just wasn't the same but we did save some gifts for Matthew to open. He was pretty much down for three days. No one else got it *knock on wood*.

New Years was uneventful. Paul had to work. The boys and I went over to my parents. My best friend joined us. We took our new Wii with us and played that all night. The boys even stayed up to ring in the new year!

This week everything is back to normal. Normal work schedules, back to our early on visits and play group (school). My birthday is on the 17th. I'm going to be *cough* 31 *cough*.

Here's wishing everyone a safe and happy 2009!

The Holiday Season is upon us...

And I believe we are ready. Christmas this year is going to be so much more fun with the boys. They are old enough now to see stuff. We put the tree up Sunday while they were napping. When they go up the lights were on and only one thing was hanging on the tree... their moon! They were so excited to see the lights. Since then Daddy said when he gets them up in the morning they get quite upset that they have to have their diaper changed before they can see the tree. When they are playing they will stop every so often and yell "Mommy - Daddy", then when we say "what" they point to the tree and say "TREE".

Tonight we went and met Daddy for his lunch. We were a tad early so we drove around and looked at some Christmas lights. They LOVED them. Matthew saw a house that had a lot of lights and he said "WOW". So that is going to be TONS of fun this year. I can't wait until this weekend when we can drive around with Daddy and look at lights.

Our Christmas shopping is almost done also. The boys, our niece and both nephews are done. Paul's Grandma B, and his Mom are all done as well as my sister and parents. Now all we have to shop for his the difficult people. Sigh.. I have no clue what to get them.

Here's to wishing all of you a Merry Christmas!

Ewww... SNOW

We had our first real snow today. Snow that sticks on the ground. Maybe an inch at the most. Mommy does not like snow. Yes it's pretty when it sticks to the trees and stuff but that just means that it is cold out and I don't do the cold very well. The boys have ventured into the life of winter coats. I don't think they are to happy about it. They look like they are encased in cement when they are in their car seats. They know that when we are outside the hat stays on but you can take it off in the car. I have snowpants for the two of them but we still need to get boots.

David had his six month check up for his heart Monday. She said he sounded great! Not a worry and see us again in another six months!!! They will do an echo when we go then. Our life with a heart defect baby has finally turned into a life with normal two year old twin boys. However normal that is. David eats way more then Matthew. I still can't find out where he's putting it. The kid is soooo skinny.

Matthew has one of his two year molars thru, his bottom right. The bottom left feels quite swollen like it's ready. He's drooling like a little faucet that someone left on. Isn't he to old for that crap? We tell him to wipe his drool and he wipes off his chin.

The boys are TALKING & TALKING & TALKING & TALKING & TALKING & TALKING & TALKING, you get my point right? They are nuts I tell ya. They will holler for Mommy or Daddy and if you say 'yes dear' they just say Mommy again. They will only continue with what they want to say if you say 'what'. You can not usually figure out what they are saying because it's still the twin talk babble but real works are coming in great numbers. The moon, bus, and the american flag are their FAVORITE things. Matthew says Thank You all the time without us prompting him to. He also says sorry if he thinks he did something wrong.

They are crazy busy all the time and love to stand in our living room window and run cars back and forth across the ledge. Something my nephew Andrew would do and still does when he's here.

Love and Hugs to all
Sarah 'n Boys

The Day I Became a Heart Mother

The Day I Became a Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down, I'll never be the same.
They told me that my child was sick.
I thought, "am I to blame"?
I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.
It seemed my heart was breaking.
I have loved him for so long.

I will not give up on this child.
I will listen to your advice.
I will give my child any chance.
No matter what the price.
I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.
I'll even use that feeding tube.
My child must survive!

Will he need a lot of therapy?
Will he gain the needed weight?
Please God, help me do this.
I will accept our fate.

When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.
How many parents would love that sound.
Tomorrow I will be kinder.
As another Angel earns his wings, I run to my child's bed.
I watch him sleep for quite a while.
I bend down and kiss his head.
I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.
I look to You wondering why?
Oh Lord, I just can't know your ways....no matter how I try.

And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.
My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!

From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.
From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.
From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.
With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.

For all who see that faded line.
I look to them and smile.
You see my child is loved so much.
I would face ANY trial.
That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).
God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).

A heart mom is always a heart mom.
Now wise beyond her years.
For those who have angels in heaven,
Our hearts share in all of your tears.

Every day I will try and remember,
I was chosen for him (and no other).
I will always embrace that beautiful day.......
When I became a "Heart Mother".

- Author Unknown