Ugh...

I’m sitting at work today with my anxiety bothering me BAD. I just want to go home, take a xanax and crawl into bed and not wake up. Take me out of this nightmare.


Let me start by saying I DID NOTHING WRONG (at first).

My nephew Andrew, my buddy since his birth. My sister took him away from us when my boys were born and moved to Kentucky. Followed her ex husband down there because she thought they could work things out. Didn’t work out that way. This last winter the said ex and his new wife who is from Michigan also, moved back. My sister stayed in Kentucky.

Well this summer my nephew is here in Lansing staying with his Dad and step mom for the summer. I sent his step mom a message on facebook asking her if I could spend some time with Andrew. I have not seen him since February when my Grandpa died. I MISS HIM. I sent a nice message, said nothing wrong but apparently the bitch took it the wrong way. She called my sister who in turn called me and bitched me out on my voice mail… twice. I didn’t answer because I knew what happened. I DID NOTHING WRONG.

I was at my parents when the voice mails came in. She called my Mom and drug my parents into it AGAIN. I’m tired of her dragging them into everything and I’m tired of them letting her do that to them.

Anyways… on my way home Friday I was getting more and more pissed. Especially at the step mom because I hadn’t done nothing wrong. So I got home, then I did the wrong thing. But now I don’t care. I sent the step mom the nastiest message (private message) on facebook I could. I was PISSED. I told her I was pissed she started a fight between my sister and I again. That she lied about the weekend before (I had asked for Andrew the weekend before to take him to a ball game. They told Heidi no because they were going up north but instead went to someone’s house over by Detroit where the said Dad got so drunk he couldn’t even drive his family home the next morning… how classy. I told her how I am so tired of them using Andrew as a pawn against each other and one day he’s going to grow up and realize what ass holes his parents are. So yea, I shouldn’t have did it but I did. You can only take so much you know.

So I posted on my wall on my facebook… something like “Andrew buddy, I love you. Your mom probably hates me know but someday when you turn 18 I will find you and get to spend some time with you”.

Oh the nasty comment I got from my sister. I had to wind up blocking her and said step mom from my facebook. I got nasty text from step mom and my sister and had to go into Verizon’s website and block them from contacting me.

My sister told me to (excuse my French) “I am done with you bitch Fuck Off and you will never see MY son again.”

So again, I don’t have a sister. Someday when Andrew turns 18 I WILL find him.

I am stressed out about the situation, not because of the loss of my sister, I don’t care about that bitch. And don’t tell me about how someday she will be all I have because I DON’T CARE. I have never cared for my sister, I have just tolerated her for my parents sake. She has always been a red headed bitch… ALWAYS. Even as kids I didn’t like her but I had no choice then. I do now. She’s always negative and rarely says anything positive to me. I’m tired of dealing with is, hearing it and most of all putting up with it. This is the third time she’s done this shit to me.

So I am done. I will not apologize to her, I didn’t do anything wrong. I don’t need her in my life, I don’t need the negativity in my life. I tried to tolerate her after the last two and I just cannot do it anymore.

I don’t feel sorry for me. I feel sorry for Andrew and for my parents who have two kids that cannot get along. I’m sorry for them that they keep letting her drag them into this shit. I’m a little upset that they keep letting her to this to them. They stress over it but they bring it on themselves by letting her drag them in. She’s always been like this and she always will. She has such mental issues and she needs help.

Christmas should be fun…. NOT